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Revelations

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 12:13:57 -0800

It troubles me to see this world turning into an absolute state of disrepair. Peoples’ greed has permeated through every aspect of our lives and culture. Now, the dog eat dog mentality comes before love. People think I’m crazy because I smile at them. I am trying to reverse this paradigm we find ourselves victims to. I know God is real. I know that Christianity is more than what it’s been exploited as. Constantine in 325 A.D. made the religion servant to the state. It was used to control people to conform to an ideal state of revenue and obedience. Gnostics were the first Christians. Jesus was closer to a mystic than the man they portray in the chosen Gospels of the circulating Bibles. There is so much people do not realize bout love and energy. When you are negative, you are channeling negativity. The Yin and Yang. There is a balance of course, and it pulsates. The ebb and flow. Some bad must exist. Think-suns and black holes. Black holes and destruction must exist for pure love and creation to exist. So, knowing that, we must train our minds to channel the positive energy. God made us all in his/her psychological image. We are all Gods. Just small. Think of the tree-we start with the roots using the decomposition in the soil to feed its growth. The huge trunk, then the branches into smaller ones, ever growing ever changing. The worlds we never see beneath the surface holds more value than we will ever truly comprehend. I love God. And that has been the most liberating moment in my life. God is LOVE. GOD IS LOVE. LOVE IS GOD. LOVE is ALL we need. Literally. Love is energy. Have faith and the rest will follow.

Your Face in Real Time

Sat, 17 Dec 2011 07:44:00 -0800

Your Face in Real Time

Le Soliel Et La

Wed, 16 Nov 2011 07:53:59 -0800

Across the mountainous wonders

the clouds gently tumble

the soft whisps caress her peaks and valleys

before slowly drifting back to the sea

each day before the sun breaks through

the cloud is predestined to dissolve

a cyclic dance between nature and resolve

the patterns provided give us life and beauty

but nature’s bounty is exploited

by a notion that she can be mastered or controlled

or worse, ignored.

if it’s too big to fail

then we are too small to care

too nuanced to ascertain

what exists on another level.

in an instant it could all fade away

she could be gone and her bounty would not reach this place.

its life would be left un-sustained

but the sun will still rise

and the clouds will still roll in

just maybe not here.

Swimming for all eternity

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:22:44 -0800

Swimming for all eternity

Parabolas

Wed, 26 Oct 2011 06:54:16 -0700

This substance is nothing to me
just a new experience
i can handle any drug
including you
i can drop hit after hit
and be in control
it does not rule my mind
you do not rule my mind
i do not rule my mind
i rule not a thing
i have no desire for control
i like to be the
observer
i can take it in and in
and it will not phase me
my consciousness is far removed
from my physical being
it separated a long time ago
it’s strange to be in such a world
it’s like I almost don’t exist in either of them …
fully
i drift through this earth
not fully immersing myself in anything
unless i choose to
unless i choose you
i’ll show you what worlds can exist
when you are powerful enough to create them
i can make an infinite world
of possibilities
everything i imagine
exists
i just picture you lying there
waiting for me
wondering what would be possible
if it did feel good
should you let yourself go
into my world
or will you keep the boundaries
either way is fine
it will not phase me
either way
my world is beautiful
i feel no sadness
i feel no pain
unless i wish to
i suppose that is control
funny
when you let everything go
everything bends back
warped and twisted
longing to be yours
again.

Sans tout

Sat, 22 Oct 2011 21:43:06 -0700

life begins with you

begins with one whisper

a melancholy curtain

needs to be removed

so far from sadness

exists a perfect harmony

of everything we know

and everything we don’t

self-portrait

Thu, 06 Oct 2011 12:43:03 -0700

self-portrait

Surrender

Fri, 23 Sep 2011 00:57:54 -0700

I don’t have very many credentials. I don’t have any publications, and no one but a select few really know I exist. I keep to myself for the most part. But I do have a creative expression that needs some sort of outlet, so I’m sharing them here. I was writing to my friend today about my childhood, being born into the radio industry through my grandfather Bob Grant. No one really knows much about him anymore, but in his day he was at least a recognizable name. Not that that matters. What matters is that I definitely get some sort of gratification from letting my thoughts out, like we all do, so here I am. I’d like for some people to take them seriously though, because I share them with a certain apprehension because I know they are taboo and not normal. And that makes me think at least I am still sane, because hey, I can rationalize that.

Anyway, when those people who do know me ask me what things I see lately, what I think about things…I don’t really have an answer right now. All I know, is a whole lotta nothing. Oh what is certain is what you can control inside your mind. I mean you can make it a playground in there if you want. It’s easy to make things easy. It’s also easy to fuck it up and make them as insanely hard and terrible as possible—-which is what a lot of us anxious-ridden, ambien sloppin whores have a problem with. We all have these grandiose ideas about what we want from the future…but we all take that future for granted. Oh my friend, what if that future didn’t exist? Then how would you be happy? Would you be happy with you, just as you are, in this moment as you stand right here? I don’t think a lot of people would know what to do, let alone be in a good enough mental state to handle such a change in their world like that. America is a gross culture that is on a decline. We are too big. There is too much consumption too much need, not enough resources. Everyone is a whore. Everything is industrialized. Nothing is sacred. People just take your money all over the place. Things lose their value quicker than anything I ever seen…I don’t even know how to keep up with new phones or the new this that and I’m only 26!

I guess my soul is tired. That’s what I feel like. I feel like I’ve retired from that collective consciousness and I’m waiting for the next grade to start in human history. I want to graduate to a higher level of thinking. And I’m waiting for everyone else to get on the same page. Until then, I’ll keep up my charade. But you should know that once shit hits the fan, I’m going to be so happy that I could be apart of the group that said “i told ya so.”

Genderbending Chickens

Mon, 19 Sep 2011 08:43:59 -0700

About a year ago, I was sitting in the doctor’s office, and I picked up Discover Magazine’s Top 100 Discoveries of the year issue. Inside it, they discussed these chickens, who have half male half female cells. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/scotland/edinburgh_and_east/8561814.stm

The scientists theorize that the chicken’s cells follow their own chromosomal guidelines, unlike the traditional mammalian model where it is accepted that the gonad’s hormonal release dictates what characteristics the cells will take on. When the scientists tested their hypothesis: “They found that female donor cells embedded in male cells didn’t assume male functions. Similarly, male donor cells in an ovary-inducing environment didn’t take on female roles. The team concluded that the cells couldn’t switch sexual roles and that their orientation was fixed before they arrived.

Next, the researchers want to show by just how much these sex differences precede sex-hormone influences. ‘We believe the cells know they are male or female at fertilization,’ Clinton says.”

Now these exceptions aren’t just limited to chickens, they have found the same pattern of development in mammals as well. What’s interesting about all this is that it takes gender away from the gonads and puts it into the body itself—inside the cells. This cellular level of gender challenges what we dictate as the be all and end all of sexual development. Now what could be possible is that what makes you a man is not your penis per se, but your body itself. The hormones tell your cells what traits to take on, but fundamentally, they could be male or female, and that could explain why transgender or intersex people feel so terrible and confused about their body’s development. Could you imagine having primarily male cells, and developing with female hormones? Oops. God has a sense of humor. Your brain would be very confused, looking in the mirror, your cells screaming out to develop in a different way. The way you feel you should be isn’t the way you look, and now you’re in quite a predicament.

It’s a plausible idea.

Additionally, I believe that transgender people should not be classified as trans but as intersex. I think all this reference to gonadal development is too revealing and causes negative stigmas to develop in others before they even have a chance to get to know you. I mean, we don’t go up to people we meet and immediately disclose how big our dicks are. If we did that, the people we meet and know would always have that in their minds when they’re thinking about us…how uncomfortable is that?? I think that the intersex identifier would give more legitimacy in peoples’ eyes to their condition. It implies at least that the male parts are there, in addition to the female parts. When you say just transgender, I feel that people just think the transgender person only feels they are male, and that they don’t have any real male parts to base their transition on. And that way of thinking takes away from that transgender person’s identity…makes them less of a man in the judging person’s eyes.

Why do I speak of this? I suppose all these commercials with dancing with the stars and all these political news channels analyzing the shit out of the Chaz Bono. I feel bad for the guy to be honest. To be under that kind of scrutiny, and to know that everyone knows your penis is missing or it’s really small/underdeveloped? I mean that’s just not fair. If we were gonna make this even, all guys should have to disclose their penis size then when they are identified. Then everyone can be judged equally. I mean think of how much your social and professional life would suffer if you had to disclose that you had a micro penis? Everyone would hate you.

But in all seriousness, since I am a peaceful fellow, I must say that the best way to solve issues of sexism and genderism and all other forms of sexual exploitation, we must take away from judging based on genitals. We must educate the newer generation the same way we educated them that black people were not lesser than white people. We have to understand that what makes the man is not what hangs between his legs, but what resides within his heart and soul.

“rose colored glasses”

Mon, 19 Sep 2011 08:14:21 -0700

“rose colored glasses”

Kinda cliche, but true.

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 12:01:06 -0700

Kinda cliche, but true.

Solar Storm NPR Report from 2010

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 12:00:45 -0700

Solar Storm NPR Report from 2010

Astrology's Cycle of Life

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 16:33:30 -0700

The universe is a composition of cycles and orbits. The orbits of the planets and the interrelations with the stars and other galaxies make up the cycles that drive the life and death of all things.

When we are born, we are each given a planetary alignment. This planetary alignment, a natal chart, is your blueprint for what you will experience the rest of your life, as the ebb and flow of the universe pulls on your innermost parts of your being-causing you to experience similar patterns of cosmic cycles.

These long term and short term cycles are what push us through life and our development as human beings. You know how the same time every year you feel like cleaning through your shit? You know how some days you’re on top of the world and sometimes you’re not? Well I know that’s pretty vague and can apply to a lot of things, but it’s not just your brain chemistry. It’s a combination of factors. The things going on inside your head, the lack of oxytocin or endorphins or what not, is just one part of your system. Think of it this way: Your body is your vessel. What you do to it harms or helps your vessels functioning-environmental and psychological factors dictate whether your body will be on top shape for what the universe is throwing at it.

Now the universe’s cycles are the tests you are put through before your vessel expires. How well you did in this trial will dictate what happens to your consciousness when you leave this earth. If your consciousness is undeveloped and can’t process crossing over, you remain here before you go to heaven or hell or whatever it may be. Hence why people plucked abruptly are still roaming this realm as ghosts.

If you think what I’m saying is crazy that’s fine. But what I think is crazier is people not believing there are cosmic forces at work that pull on us in some way. Why wouldn’t massive amounts of energy effect us? The moon controls our ocean. Without it, and without the magnetic pull of our core, we would be dead. Non existent. If the ocean’s current changes just slightly, the earth’s weather would change as we know it. It’s something most people don’t even think about. Not saying you should be in fear or something, but at least appreciate the raw power of it.

There are so many things we cannot explain, and we are so egocentric we can’t understand the ontological foundations on which life is built. My point is that without cycles we would be stagnant, and when life is stagnant it dies. Since this is the case, we should, as intelligent beings, strive for a life more enriched then the current one has to offer. People say it is impossible, but it’s a choice. What’s yours?

Elevate3Illuminate3Ascend3: Harmonize Your Vibration by Carrie Hart - UNIVISIONS

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 12:43:45 -0700

Elevate3Illuminate3Ascend3: Harmonize Your Vibration by Carrie Hart - UNIVISIONS:

elevate3illuminate3ascend3:

You are much, much stronger than you think you are. You are strong enough, not only to survive what life has brought you, but to thrive within it.

What you seek is harmony, harmony between what actually is, the new day as she is unfolding, and your actions and desires. Today, this moment, holds…

It seems plausible

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 14:12:00 -0700

It seems plausible

NASA Warns Solar Storm is Coming

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 13:29:35 -0700

NASA Warns Solar Storm is Coming

Terence McKenna and the IChing

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 12:38:00 -0700

Terence Mckenna, an explorer, scientist, philosopher, did many great things to expand our conception of human consciousness. One of his most notable and discussed contribution was his discovery related to the connection between the Iching and human history. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Ching#Structure

Basically, the Iching is a complex system of divination, or the practice of seeing the future. It’s a system that has been revered and utilized by Taoists, the Confucian Elite, Buddhists, etc. It’s made up of binary and hexagrams, each with their own very specific meanings (i.e. deliverance, breaking through, defeat, etc.) What Terence did is put the Iching in calender form using a computer model. What the model revealed was that the peaks and valleys correspond with major shifts in human consciousness (i.e. the invention of the cotton gin, the American Revolution, etc.)

Now I’ve grossly simplified everything, but the point is that the model is starting to drop off the chart. Those drops coincide with the flaws of the present cultures. These flaws are causing some major malfunctions. There is no doubt in my mind that we as a species are far removed from life and nature, and we are slipping further away every day. The cultures we have developed to operate our consciousness in are parasitic to life, emotionally and physically. We are taking and taking for our own survival and leaving nothing beneficial. We have attained too much, too fast, and we are not mature enough to utilize them responsibly.

Our greatest challenge as a species is to clear our consciousness and remove the operating systems we utilize them with to function in this realm. Think of it this way:

We have our inner consciousness which must function in the physical and collective realm of space. We use culture as an operating system to navigate (I’m referencing Mckenna’s theories) the world. Each culture we’ve developed has flaws in it’s operating system. For example, if you are running republicanchristian5.0 you are not going to be very tolerant of a naked commune where they sing around a campfire every night. But if you’re running Hippie2.1 you probably are more likely to think it’s rad. The point is that culture is relative, and it’s fragile. It can be erased and removed from your mind, so that your consciousness can operate free from categories and beliefs and ideologies.

Now America is running consumercapitilism 5.0, and that operating system’s bugs are starting to show. And if you think I’m silly for using computer software as a metaphor for our minds, consider this:

The goal of an operating system is to think for the computer, build a roadmap for how it should process information and thus to function. We are creating these operating systems based on what we know, and how we understand things. We are pulling our model for these things based on how WE do it. Thus, we are making it in our image, SO why wouldn’t it be similar to us?

To tie in the Iching again, the galactic forces at be say this is the inevitable end of this cycle. And if you think about it, it’s already happening. America is not what it used to be, we need a new system to compensate for all the failures and flaws in our structure. So the question is then why don’t we voluntarily shift our consciousness so that we may save ourselves? Well we won’t and we can’t all do that. Some of us our too far gone to clear our beliefs from our psyche. But some of us can, and some of us will. I do not think it possible for the human race to join together voluntarily, unfortunately, most people need an imminent threat to their existence to create change.

A Shift in Consciousness

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 01:44:00 -0700

There have been a lot of ideas exchanged recently on the fate of our existence as human beings on this earth. From the most intense conspiracy theorist, to the most devout government employee, everyone has something to say and almost everything is contradictory.

What is clear is that the truth is somewhere.

While some think the end of days will come in nuclear warfare, others an asteroid or the Planet X/Nibiru, others a shift in the earth’s polarity, the list of theories goes on and on. And a million different scenarios exist, although only one of them can really be true, or maybe many can be true.

And that’s what I believe-there is a combination of forces at work here prompting a shift in the human existence. What we are certain of is that there is an ebb and flow to human history. Civilizations rise and fall and ideas come and go and beliefs change, I mean come on, we’ve known of this since our first years learning history at elementary school. Everything is cyclic. And here’s where you can tie in some astrological concepts. Everyone and everything, even events, have a planetary chart to them. This chart shows where the planets aligned when that person or thing came into existence. And every chart then is exposed to the way the planets move going forward for the rest of their life. At any given moment, these are called “transits” and they depict how the planet or celestial body is aligned against its natal aspects. There are a few types of alignments: Squares, Oppositions, Trines, Conjuctions, Sextiles. You see, the planets create energy, and that energy is manipulated depending on how they are aligned. A square is very intense friction. Oppositions cause friction between the alignment, but can be harnessed positively.

My natal chart:

Astrologists figure all this out by using mathematical equations to figure out the value of the alignments. As you can see above, the colors indicate a relationship, the opposition is obvious, because it is opposite the other planet, but the others are more complicated than that. Sorry for the onslaught of information, but it’ll make sense I promise.

Now for the most part, each chart experiences the same types of alignments, just at different points in their lifetime. Let’s say for example, I have a really intense square with my natal mars and the transiting neptune. This transit lasts for about a year, and it symbolizes imaginary fears and terrors about your life. Neptune being the planet of dreams and altered realities. Anyway, this transit happens to affect me during my twenties, but you have it much later in your lifetime. Each would affect us differently, duh, but what I’m saying is we are all part of an individual and collective cycle of birth and rebirth. A thing, a person, a country, a political movement, each has their individual planetary alignment, and each lives and dies by that alignment and its relationship to the transiting planetary entities around us.

Now you think I’m very, very disturbed. Okay, that’s fine. But hear me out: if our little moon can control our entire ocean system, and the delicate rotation of the earth around our massive sun controls our magnetic field which controls our existence—these energies are no joke and they are real and they MUST affect our energies as well. I mean just cause we can’t see something doesn’t mean it’s not there. People thought the earth was flat, and the sun rotated around the earth, what I’m saying may be true, you never know.

What I’d like to tie in now is the doomsday theory. Since we are all part of the collective cycle as a whole, it is inevitable that our society will crumble into oblivion at some point in time. When is what everyone wants to know, but I do not think we are going to have that privilege. What is certain is that if we are so lucky to see a shift in the human consciousness I think we should embrace the idea of such a thing happening.

In my hopeful mind I do want to believe it will happen and it will happen soon. The American dream seems to be a nightmare, and the society we built with this consumption based culture is a terrible model for living out a life on this earth. What are we doing with ourselves? We have the power to do so much for ourselves and each other and we sit here and squander away our resources and kill our planet and ourselves and hopes and dreams and … it is time for a change.

I’d like to fancy myself an observer of human existence. An observer and a student. Part of the cycle of change that the whole universe is a part of. interacting between solar systems and stars and galaxies the things that go on beyond this world we will never understand. And honestly, I secretly wish everyone would stop trying to understand so much, and just be. No I don’t think we all should just drop everything and join a commune, but at what point do you have to realize that as a society, you cannot sustain yourselves like this, and either things change in a planned manner, or they change at an ad hoc basis. Then you should pose yourself the question, do we have a responsibility to others to compromise, to voluntarily give up our way of life, so that we can change for the better as a species as a whole? It’s simply not possible. What is possible is that a few do the right thing. And that all starts with you.

College Student from Los Angeles Fights for Libyan Rebels

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 00:55:00 -0700

College Student from Los Angeles Fights for Libyan Rebels

have you ever been happy? have you ever tried?

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 20:09:17 -0700

From what my limited experience tells me, life is an endless adaptation to our surrounding environment. We all cope with it in our own ways, mine has become about what I guess can be described as indifference. It’s not that I don’t care about things, I just don’t care to alter them. That whole control thing I guess.

I used to have anxiety pretty bad, but then I lost everything I ever had. Starting over meant looking beyond the material things and looking at the emotional things preventing my happiness. I had always been driving myself forward into new endeavors. Never thinking much if I truly enjoyed my jobs or what not … probably because if I thought about it I would have known the answer was “no.”

The motivation behind my actions was not to please me, but to please others and their ideal of what I felt I needed to be to be accepted. I had always been afraid that the person I was on the inside was not who they were seeing. I figured my actions and my accolades would do that for me…but like everything, I must learn the hard way.

I was just always choosing the wrong identity to represent myself…

I was choosing the wrong identity, because I didn’t create it yet. You’ll never be satisfied with who you are, unless you satisfy all those parts of you which yearn to be filled. If you have desires and wishes, they must be fulfilled or dealt with, they cannot roam about your consciousness unaddressed.

So far, my life experience has felt like my early childhood was spent on a ship lost at sea, alone. And my young adult life felt like that ship was destroyed in a storm and I was swimming for my life. And now, I feel like I’ve washed away all that was, and can start anew.

I was alone because I didn’t know how to communicate with others (probably because I can’t really identify). I was destroyed by some higher power, because the person I built up to that point was frail and weak, unhappy and depressed. I needed to be cleansed. And now I have shed all things that were preventing me from being happy with who I am.

I mean I don’t know who I am completely, but I do know that I am transformed. It’s kind of like when you find out Santa Claus doesn’t really exist, you can’t go back to believing in it, you’ll never see things the same again.

That being said, after all the pain I’ve felt, I can’t feel it anymore. I won’t let it. I will healthily address my emotions, but I will not let others hurt me or situations hurt me again. The only one you can truly rely on is you. And the only things you can truly believe are those things you value. And you can’t doubt yourself, otherwise, you may end up thinking your crazy. But so what if you only believe something to be true? It doesn’t mean it isn’t real. You thought it, so it exists…technically speaking…

“It is the imagination that argues for the Divine Spark within human beings. It is literally a decent of the World’s Soul into all of us.”
- Terence McKenna